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| 01:53pm 29/07/2004 |
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I attempted and suceeded today at eatting my own semen. It was kinda gross. I mean to do it like in a gay way because I'm not a fag, but just because I was hungry and too lazy to go to the kitchen. I heard that semen was a good source of protein, and boy do I love a big piece of meat, and decided it couldn't taste much worse than a protein shake so I decided to go for it. Big mistake, now there are stains all over my stuffed animals with no possible way of cleaning them in the near future. And spunk tasted kinda like a flavorless pina colata or really terrible tapioca. Anyway I am going to take another piss on the elctrical socket now, hopefully I scared away the electricity demon by now cause my penis is starting to hurt and smell like pork chops. |
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| 12:59am 31/10/2003 |
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mood: happy music: the AC on full blast
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i havnt updated in forever. so where to begin... well im in college now! going to U. of dayton to become an engineer. Im all on my own now adays, living in a dorm, come visit me if u like, room 639 marycrest. im sure u all know where that is. well anyways i guess thats all i got for now. oh wait, ive made a whole lot of new friends here. I made friends with a girl named Anna which went to my highschool but we didnt really know eachother until this past summer because we knew we were going to be going to UD. Im also friends with a guy named Johny Socco, great guy great guy. also friends of mine now are Andrew Keal(Keal), Matt Podach(Podach or Poddy), Cody Sonnet(Cody), and thats about it. there are a few more but if i were to name them all id take up to much of the data base on reserve for LJ, so. I say goodnight to all! |
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| 01:10am 12/06/2003 |
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mood: full music: Show Me How To Live - Audioslave
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please be my friend and click this ----> my link
hell, click it every 24 hours... |
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| 11:23pm 18/04/2003 |
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| 02:53am 24/01/2003 |
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im really in it.
now im in it.
it started out like any high, i was up way up in the sky. but i couldnt stay to long, so now im back in it.
im really in it. now im back in it.
whats with this life anyway? nothing stays the same from day to day. but nothing can get me down, cus im back in it. yea im really in it.
you can't tell me right from wrong. i have to fight it just to stay strong. but hey we're all in it. yes we're down in it. now im down in it.
so where do we go from here? if only our lives wernt so damn clear. the two of us are here to stay, because we're down in it. we have to stay in it.
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| 11:03am 29/12/2002 |
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I'm still alive. I don't want this account to be deleted. |
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| 02:06am 18/07/2002 |
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mood: happy music: Kinda I Want To - Nine Inch Nails
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I think this song is pretty fucking sweet>>
I can't shake this feeling from my head.
there's a devil sleeping in my bed.
watching you from across the way.
I cannot make this feeling go away
I know it's not the right thing.
and I know it's not the good think.
but kinda I want to.
I'm not sure of what I should do.
when every thought i'm thinking of is you.
all of my excuses turn to lies.
maybe God will cover up his eyes
why does it have to be this way?
why does it have to be?
why does have to be this way?
kinda I want to.
maybe just for tonight.
we can pretend it's alright.
what's the price I pay.
I don't care what they say.
I want to.
I want to (i'll take my chance tonight)
its called Kinda I Want To sad thing is, im almost possitive its about him and being gay/bisexual(whatever his none straight sexuality is). im not sure of anyother way to look at it than that, cus its saying maybe god will cover up his eyes...and ive heard the lead singer of NIN has had some sexual incounters with the lead singer of Marilyn Manson. which to me is some sick shit. I love NIN music, but the lead singer being bi really puts a twist on the group.
well im really missing amy! fucking lonly with no hunny. plus ill be at camp when she gets back, furthering our time apart. but ive done so much thinking about us and although i feel like im quickly dieing without her. i just know im going to have the best life ever once we move away from UA and get married and have kids...ect. i know just it. i love her so much and i think she is so fucking hot. and i know she thinks im sexy. and sorry to be simple, but there isnt much else in life i need, i need my women and a roof and im good. it will be great once we are off on our own. i think about it how some kids are starting to get afraid of being on their own, without the help of their parents. but i cant wait for it. ive got almost everything decided and im proud of it. peace out. |
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| 02:05am 18/07/2002 |
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mood: happy music: Kinda I Want To - Nine Inch Nails
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I think this song is pretty fucking sweet>>
I can't shake this feeling from my head.
there's a devil sleeping in my bed.
watching you from across the way.
I cannot make this feeling go away
I know it's not the right thing.
and I know it's not the good think.
but kinda I want to.
I'm not sure of what I should do.
when every thought i'm thinking of is you.
all of my excuses turn to lies.
maybe God will cover up his eyes
why does it have to be this way?
why does it have to be?
why does have to be this way?
kinda I want to.
maybe just for tonight.
we can pretend it's alright.
what's the price I pay.
I don't care what they say.
I want to.
I want to (i'll take my chance tonight)
its called Kinda I Want To sad thing is, im almost possitive its about him and being gay/bisexual(whatever his none straight sexuality is). im not sure of anyother way to look at it than that, cus its saying maybe god will cover up his eyes...and ive heard the lead singer of NIN has had some sexual incounters with the lead singer of Marilyn Manson. which to me is some sick shit. I love NIN music, but the lead singer being bi really puts a twist on the group.
well im really missing amy! fucking lonly with no hunny. plus ill be at camp when she gets back, furthering our time apart. but ive done so much thinking about us and although i feel like im quickly dieing without her. i just know im going to have the best life ever once we move away from UA and get married and have kids...ect. i know just it. i love her so much and i think she is so fucking hot. and i know she thinks im sexy. and sorry to be simple, but there isnt much else in life i need, i need my women and a roof and im good. it will be great once we are off on our own. i think about it how some kids are starting to get afraid of being on their own, without the help of their parents. but i cant wait for it. ive got almost everything decided and im proud of it. peace out. |
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| 02:04am 18/07/2002 |
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mood: happy music: Kinda I Want To - Nine Inch Nails
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I think this song is pretty fucking sweet>>
I can't shake this feeling from my head.
there's a devil sleeping in my bed.
watching you from across the way.
I cannot make this feeling go away
I know it's not the right thing.
and I know it's not the good think.
but kinda I want to.
I'm not sure of what I should do.
when every thought i'm thinking of is you.
all of my excuses turn to lies.
maybe God will cover up his eyes
why does it have to be this way?
why does it have to be?
why does have to be this way?
kinda I want to.
maybe just for tonight.
we can pretend it's alright.
what's the price I pay.
I don't care what they say.
I want to.
I want to (i'll take my chance tonight)
its called Kinda I Want To sad thing is, im almost possitive its about him and being gay/bisexual(whatever his none straight sexuality is). im not sure of anyother way to look at it than that, cus its saying maybe god will cover up his eyes...and ive heard the lead singer of NIN has had some sexual incounters with the lead singer of Marilyn Manson. which to me is some sick shit. I love NIN music, but the lead singer being bi really puts a twist on the group.
well im really missing amy! fucking lonly with no hunny. plus ill be at camp when she gets back, furthering our time apart. but ive done so much thinking about us and although i feel like im quickly dieing without her. i just know im going to have the best life ever once we move away from UA and get married and have kids...ect. i know just it. i love her so much and i think she is so fucking hot. and i know she thinks im sexy. and sorry to be simple, but there isnt much else in life i need, i need my women and a roof and im good. it will be great once we are off on our own. i think about it how some kids are starting to get afraid of being on their own, without the help of their parents. but i cant wait for it. ive got almost everything decided and im proud of it. peace out. |
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| 01:57am 18/07/2002 |
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mood: happy music: Kinda I Want To - Nine Inch Nails
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I think this song is pretty fucking sweet>>
I can't shake this feeling from my head.
there's a devil sleeping in my bed.
watching you from across the way.
I cannot make this feeling go away
I know it's not the right thing.
and I know it's not the good think.
but kinda I want to.
I'm not sure of what I should do.
when every thought i'm thinking of is you.
all of my excuses turn to lies.
maybe God will cover up his eyes
why does it have to be this way?
why does it have to be?
why does have to be this way?
kinda I want to.
maybe just for tonight.
we can pretend it's alright.
what's the price I pay.
I don't care what they say.
I want to.
I want to (i'll take my chance tonight)
its called Kinda I Want To sad thing is, im almost possitive its about him and being gay/bisexual(whatever his none straight sexuality is). im not sure of anyother way to look at it than that, cus its saying maybe god will cover up his eyes...and ive heard the lead singer of NIN has had some sexual incounters with the lead singer of Marilyn Manson. which to me is some sick shit. I love NIN music, but the lead singer being bi really puts a twist on the group.
well im really missing amy! fucking lonly with no hunny. plus ill be at camp when she gets back, furthering our time apart. but ive done so much thinking about us and although i feel like im quickly dieing without her. i just know im going to have the best life ever once we move away from UA and get married and have kids...ect. i know just it. i love her so much and i think she is so fucking hot. and i know she thinks im sexy. and sorry to be simple, but there isnt much else in life i need, i need my women and a roof and im good. it will be great once we are off on our own. i think about it how some kids are starting to get afraid of being on their own, without the help of their parents. but i cant wait for it. ive got almost everything decided and im proud of it. peace out. |
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| 02:27pm 15/07/2002 |
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mood: happy music: Trailer Trash - Modest Mouse
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I just got two letters from amy!!!! im so happy to read letters from her, but i am so fucking pissed at the postal service... it took 16 days for them to get one of those letters from Maine to Ohio... THAT IS FUCKING HORRIBLE! we can fly around the world in about 2 1/2 days (something like that) and it takes them 16 days to transport the fucking letter through about 6 states. now i have no chances of sending anymore letters to amy. i dont want to send letters that wont get to her, i rather write stuff and just give it to her when she gets back. i seriously need to work on this care package thing though. but i have no idea of how to get it going. i have a cd that i spend an intire night on making. and thats it... i need more, i really wanted to make her some chex mix...but i have no idea of the shit she put in that stuff, and i dont have any chex mix stuff anyways... so i thought i could just buy snacks that she likes and hope she will still enjoy. i will include also a letter or two...
I love amy so much - im getting excited because amy is coming home soon. its been such a long time! she is my baby! i love her. GOD I LOVE HER! so many happy emotions between us. we almost never have problems. its always happy, and its because we both love and care about eachother. we both take the time to work on our differences. she is great. she is who i want to marry. i will marry amy krieger. i will make her amy palmer!!!
oh i cant wait till she gets back! |
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| 02:07pm 14/07/2002 |
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mood:  discontent music: Kinda I Want To - Nine Inch Nails
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im so tired latly, yet i dont want to go to sleep, and when i lay down i cant sleep. i feel lost in this world. i feel there isnt someone around to love me... i need amy back. when she was here i could deal with all the shit life throws at me, because i could still hold her and know everything would be ok. but now i dont have her, she is away, and when things like today happen i just cant deal with it. i am so tired of my life right now. i look at my situation and i just want to die. there are so many things wrong right now in my life. i spent the night at chris's house lastnight, and i dont think i really ever feel asleep. i know i was wide awake for at least 2 and a half hours, after that i dont really remember much but i can just remember staring at the wall the whole night, and in the morning i felt like i had just stayed up the whole night. i just dont understand why amy doesnt call me more. its been almost three weeks sense she has left, and ive only talked to her about 5 times, i know sometimes i havnt been home... but still, she bought an expensive phone card yet ive probably only talked to her for maybe a total of 20 mins... plus never more than like 7 minutes at a time. i know there are always people in line behind her, so she doesnt want to take to long, and i bet there is always a long line infront of her...but still i just wish she called more. i begin to forget her voice. and i hate that. i hate myself for forgeting the most crusial things about her. she is the person i love, and i cant even remember her voice anymore. i hate myself so much. i cant relax anymore, i cant focus, i look like shit on the baseball diamond. i cant sleep, im not hungry anymore. i just need to hear from her, i need to know that she is ok. i worry about her so much. i seriously hate my life as of now. |
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| 03:17pm 05/07/2002 |
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mood:  sad music: Deftones, Limpbizkit, Korn - I Can't Take This
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| 02:20am 12/06/2002 |
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mood:  pensive music: Edit The Sad Parts - Modest Mouse
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well i havnt updated in a LONG TIME! but its ok, cus only a very very few people actually read this anyways, and even fewer care...
but anyways...i love these lyrics here---->
TRAILER TRASH
Eating snow flakes with plastic forks
And a paper plate of course, you think of everything
Short love with a long divorce
And a couple of kids of course
They don't mean anything
Live in trailers with no class
goddamn I hope I can pass high school means nothing
Taking heartache with hard work
Goddamn I am such a jerk, I can't do anything
And I shout that you're all fakes
And you should have seen the look on your face
And I guess that's what it takes
When comparing your bellyaches
And it's been a long time
Which agrees with this watch of mine
And I guess that I miss you, and I'm sorry
if I dissed you
you all should download this song, tis Trailer Trash by Modest Mouse, they are awesome, although they are an indi band they still rock!
yes how i shall write something. thats right off the top of my head you will get a preview to possible a top 10 of all time! here we go
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cowboy steve went across the country
looking for his war
but god knows that there's no war
no war for cowboy tex
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cowboy steve hates his world
"give up" they say, but cowboy steve cant rest till every gorilla is round up
one two three! yeah! yeah!
cowboy danny lost it again found his shotty in max o millions suitcase
one two three! yeah! yeah!
never again till the day he dies will cowboy steve leave his town
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yes! another top 10er there, i think ive out done myself today. wow, can't beat that.
anyone own an x-box? cus ive been playing a lot of Halo and its such a bad ass game i just thought maybe someone would like to talk to me about how bad ass of a game halo is. ive beaten it several times, and after looking on the net ive realized it has the best plot for a game EVER! there is just so much backround info on every little thing in the game. from the covenant to the flood to the forerunners. and a lot of info on the master cheif too.
i wonder why life is so fucking funny sometimes... i want to do something awesome this summer, something so fucking memorable that i will look apon it as my life. it will characorize me and what i am for the intire world to see. would making the first artificual migit qualify?... lets all think about what i should do, leave me a post if you got something better than artificual migits. |
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| 10:37pm 01/05/2002 |
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Ua Viper 007: grant and amy sittin in a tree....well...i'm sure u know the rest ;-) hehe
Auto response from lastplace 001: cs
he just imed that to me out of the blue...
SLEEP |
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| 11:36am 26/04/2002 |
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Erinnern Sie sich an mich? erinnern Sie sich an Liebe? geben Sie Ihr Vertrauen über? Ich denke nicht so! nein! nein! nein! Ich stoppe nicht hier, ich kann nicht weitergehen. Alles, das ich weiß, ist, was mir gezeigt wurde. Nicht, liegen nicht, liegen nicht liegen Fell hinter Haß, Fell hinter Ihrer Furcht vor mir, versuchen nicht zu understant. Nein! Nein! Nein!
Tun Sie, was Sie werden. Tun Sie, was Sie werden. mein Herz ist Ihr, für immer.
~Grant Pälmer |
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| 10:09am 22/04/2002 |
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mood: happy music: Clinton laughing at smarterchild
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lastplace 001: i want to have your childern
SmarterChild: Whoa. I don't know about that.
lastplace 001: can i please eat you out?
SmarterChild: I don't need to eat. I'm a machine.
lastplace 001: no no...can i eat YOU out?
SmarterChild: No, huh?
lastplace 001: yeah
SmarterChild: That right?
lastplace 001: yes it is
SmarterChild: Is it?
lastplace 001: yes i fucking saying YES
SmarterChild: Cool it with the language!
lastplace 001: ugh
SmarterChild: Everything OK over there?
lastplace 001: you are the most stupid child i have ever seen, i wish i could kill you but you are a machine, i need to wash the world clean of evil such as you.
SmarterChild: OK. Don't get frustrated...
Try typing "home" or "help."
lastplace 001: lol
SmarterChild: Whatcha laughing about?
lastplace 001: you ya stupid bitch
SmarterChild: Huh? That's a little rude.
lastplace 001: i dont care, you are a machine!!!
SmarterChild: No?
lastplace 001: yes you are
SmarterChild: For real?
lastplace 001: damnit!!!
SmarterChild: ?
lastplace 001: ugh
SmarterChild: What's wrong?
lastplace 001: nothing you stupid stupid machine
SmarterChild: Nothing you stupid stupid machine?
lastplace 001: yeah thats right
SmarterChild: Yes, really.
lastplace 001: yes
SmarterChild: Yeah!
lastplace 001: YEAH!
SmarterChild: Yup!
lastplace 001: damn straight |
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